The EMDR Diaries #3

Getting into the thick of it, reprocessing trauma & reflections

Welcome to the The EMDR Diaries, where I bring you, the reader, along with me for the highs and lows of Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing (EMDR) for trauma. For most of my life I’ve felt alone in my struggles, I’ve wondered what was wrong but never quite being able to put my finger on it. I know it’s the same for many of us, so it’s my hope these diaries are a comfort, or maybe more simply an insight into life as an adult post traumatic childhood experiences.

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TW: Whilst I don’t go into specifics, in this diary entry I talk about childhood trauma and therapy.

Those that told me EMDR was intense (mostly people on Reddit and not IRL) really weren’t exaggerating. I’m sorry this is later that I’d hoped. I’m coming up to 3 months of the treatment and it’s a therapy like nothing I’ve experienced before.

The impact has been surprising, not necessarily in a bad way, it’s just meant slowing down more than I anticipated (or atleast trying to) and learning to allow rest and respect my boundaries more than ever.

Last time in my 2nd EMDR diary I left you at the first session where I shared my experience with history taking and choosing resource figures. Now, I’m well and truly into the processing, and it’s a form of therapy that continues to almost surprise me in how raw and emotional it can feel, and also the experiences and past moments that are coming up as a result!